Dilemma

ACCA exam is some 17/18 days later.....and I am just here chiling, relaxing not getting in the least worried over the results..Don't know why for this semester, I have been restless and seems lethargic in doing any form of studies... Weird right? Normally my face would be kinda emo, one with few words as the days slowly creep to the much dreaded day.. Perhaps this has to do with my Lost of focus...nt those temporary focus bt the more permanent ones... THe 3 days/wk lesson has burnt me out entirely, killed my interest in ACCA and probably just gg thru the momentum was jus satisfying or to eliminate much of the guilt of not studying, Has to salvage whatever Marks I can score now!! Watching my age increases further and sometimes I wonder what am I pursuing and for whom am I pursuing? Watching gu nan gua nu( see, slacking again) makes me feel that alone is'nt always the best, one does SERIOUSLY needs a partner...Have I started looking for one or I need to learn how to like someone,I know this sounds upright stupid but other than all the gd bros and buddies that I have made, I can't separate between a gd companion/talker vs an IDEAl partner, How do I know I have found an ideal partner...arh !!! Workwise, Lincoln went for a honeymoon to Europe, hope enjoy the break, he deserves this break, During his absence, I be his Deputy in which queries/tasks which were lincoln's would be mine now, haha..1 day and I am feeling quite busy...haha,experience as an accountant position though not fully qualified yet, slowly bt surely.. Dad's in nursing home after his surgery that was needed after he fell and hurt his right leg, The 1st day I went to NUH, it was already 10.30 pm after my work long after the tiny winnny short visiting hrs, Dad bed was positioned in such a way that from the entrance, you can look thru the windows on the door and see him.. He was sloughing,with the bed nt entirely flat and his right arm with the IV dip on it forming a 90 degree on his stomach, his expression was one of uneasiness and yet I could see that he needed the rest as he had to undergo an Op the day after. I was saddened and knowing that I could do nthg to alleviate his suffering only make the feeling worse. This person lying on the bed was one who had supported me, my bro and sis in whatever we do, the positive attitude that he gave or that he inspires was encouraging. Working almost 363 days a year, he was no whiner and despite setbacks he continue to see things in a positive and bright light. Not once did he scolded us for decisions we made, no targets no expectations set on us bt we know that deep inside he wanted all of us to excel cept that probably the consideration of our feelings and pressure we would had prevented him from voicing out. Glad that my dad much better now resting and doing his rehab in an nursing home and soon to be discharged. Alrite, this post has been one of a summary of my feelings and perhaps my grunts,haha... Anyway thks for all the reading. Take care.