Exam over bt it surely ain't over yet

It has been a good 2 days of rest after my acca exams, disappointed I may be with my performance, work gonna start tml and there's always June 13 exams..

Bt it's those kinda feeling where you evaluate yourselves,what went wrong in my performance in this Dec '12 exams, hence came out with this list:
1) spending lotsa time with my mobile phone, Facebook , the famous forums in singapore...googling on cars and planes...best of all,I abstain from playing the little empire game only to be lured by all the nonsense surfing...argh..
2)I think this was a constant worry,my work email inbox, had to check constantly.
3)Not being serious enough, always delaying the real revision till 1-2 weeks b4 exams, stubbornly wanted to finish the pile of notes when I can't rmb anything of those notes come on exam date.
4) lost my focus on attaining the acca, took real lightly of the exams, dismissing it as mediocore and would come out as predicted frm my lecturer, focus on these topics while thinking lightly of the remaining topics.
5) lotsa leaves, this may be a good thing you may say, bt seriously leaves cannot be taken 3 or 4 days in a row, does no good for ur revision...bound to have at least 1.5 days nt doing anything constructively from my exp..coupled with my unpaid leave this time rd...
6)I think my mood in work was a bit too high, with a few of my buddies during working time,it was joyful and happy in spirit, bt acca exam was def the last thing in the mind...for the lower level papers, come exam time, I would usually be emo, yea gloomy face, trying to recall notes or qn..bt this time rd, I don't even tot abt anything exams...
7)I think it has to do with my attitude. I guess enuff said.

I have to constantly remind myselve that acca is a very hard quali and requires hard work, hard work and more hard work.....

I feel that if I am nt gonna be committed and put in hard work in acca, I guess I be copying and pasting this blog entry after my June 13 exams

And being an indication to my committedness, I have signed up for P6 classes in Jan next yr, which I omitted and p4 would spend at least 3 hrs a week on p4 exams and 2 hrs a week on p6 exams.

This I promise I would do tat.

Alright,engh of my rants, acca aside, Singapore lions have qualify for the semis in the Suzuki cup, a win against the phillipines would bring them into the finals, all the best lions!

Alrite, shld write till here.

Take care.

Last 2 papers!

In exactly 17 days, I would be taking the 1st of my last 2 papers. Exams rd the corner but I am giving little thought or effort in the 2 papers.I Wonder why? Is it the fear of embarking on a new journey after passing which is gg Qatar or looking at Leo taking the last 2 papers bt given his intellect still only managed to pass one. Either 1, I to be able to pass any of the 2 of the papers would be unjustifiable compared to the time I spent on the rest of the ACCA papers.And the last 2 are supposedly the hardest...pple taking 4-6 attempts just to clear 1 papers,clearly much effort and time has to be put inside. Have been travelling to SIM to mug this couple of days,took unpaid leave to study. Am utterly surprised how I survived SIM relatively alone. Looking at the carefree and ready to trounce the market place of these youngster, I felt for me...if any,if anyone saw me as a student in my younger(est) days in SIM,they must be wondering why is this guy so TROUBLED and bothered...I literally went to school studied and left,SIM was a place for lectures...Truth to be told,I attempted to make more friends by joining Student club and ODAC freshmen orientation, however while i went to yr 2 straight, the rest of the memebers(majority) had to start frm yr 1...given that classes were different, there were little time for meetup, furthermore, I rmb that I had stopped receiving allowance since I started SIM schooling and hence had to earn my keep as a lifeguard/tuition teacher..which kinda explain the minimal time spent in school.. I thk after starting work, you more or less know that people need friends, the fact that people are social person and needs communication, one cannot survive alone...getting good results but with no one to celebrate to,that would be the greatest irony When I was in SIM, I wasn't considered an introvert but rather one which had many commitments, be it work, Sec sch catch up, TKD(yea,the american cum Tanglin club thingy!)with Han and gang...I made little effort to gel with my SIM clicks..not to say, I pon the gatherings or whatsoever, I attended most of them in fact but the friendship were just not lasting... Given a chance, I would be more social able, and building up relationships with friends.. but one of UOL flaw is that it doesn't have projects hence it is hard to build up r/s with others unless you are very amicable and sociable..also, the school fees were hefty, the last thing I would want would be to fail any module and delay my gg to society to work by 1 year,imagine the opportunity cost! THose were the days...nt really wasted bt I shld say not enough effort put in to gel with the folks there.. Alrite, SIM is a pretty conducive place to go to, be it in terms of student enrolled there or using their facilities... Ok lah,shld write till here....gg to study soon!! Take care.

waaatever

Woof,puffy in my hse nw!its zhenxian dog which is staying here for a short time,while his hse undergoes reno.No complaints abt the dog, brings plenty of joy and laughter to our family;) Rmb in the previous post,I mentioned abt the 2 acca papers?yup,I cleared it..Wohoo..nw to the last 2 papers and that tinge of hey you still gt like 7 weeks to go,is kinda coming on and off inside..bt noo,I am taking like 8 days of no paid,yea you heard it correctly,no pay ah..leave,lol... Hencein,in order to justify this pay,I am gonna strive to study 2 hrs on working days,and 8 on weekends/Bo pay leave day...I believe that I can achieve this,if I can do this,I have no qualms or concerns even if exam results are nt to my favour...come on!! Been thinking a lot on going Qatar lately,find that my work lifestyle revolved much ard acca frm the day I started work.Not a bad thing though,bt it makes it hard for you to compare the opp cost tat you are incurring once over there..man I need directions..bt tat be for a later time,for now is acca.. Does one really need to Give before they can receive? A random thought. Take care.

Dilemma

ACCA exam is some 17/18 days later.....and I am just here chiling, relaxing not getting in the least worried over the results..Don't know why for this semester, I have been restless and seems lethargic in doing any form of studies... Weird right? Normally my face would be kinda emo, one with few words as the days slowly creep to the much dreaded day.. Perhaps this has to do with my Lost of focus...nt those temporary focus bt the more permanent ones... THe 3 days/wk lesson has burnt me out entirely, killed my interest in ACCA and probably just gg thru the momentum was jus satisfying or to eliminate much of the guilt of not studying, Has to salvage whatever Marks I can score now!! Watching my age increases further and sometimes I wonder what am I pursuing and for whom am I pursuing? Watching gu nan gua nu( see, slacking again) makes me feel that alone is'nt always the best, one does SERIOUSLY needs a partner...Have I started looking for one or I need to learn how to like someone,I know this sounds upright stupid but other than all the gd bros and buddies that I have made, I can't separate between a gd companion/talker vs an IDEAl partner, How do I know I have found an ideal partner...arh !!! Workwise, Lincoln went for a honeymoon to Europe, hope enjoy the break, he deserves this break, During his absence, I be his Deputy in which queries/tasks which were lincoln's would be mine now, haha..1 day and I am feeling quite busy...haha,experience as an accountant position though not fully qualified yet, slowly bt surely.. Dad's in nursing home after his surgery that was needed after he fell and hurt his right leg, The 1st day I went to NUH, it was already 10.30 pm after my work long after the tiny winnny short visiting hrs, Dad bed was positioned in such a way that from the entrance, you can look thru the windows on the door and see him.. He was sloughing,with the bed nt entirely flat and his right arm with the IV dip on it forming a 90 degree on his stomach, his expression was one of uneasiness and yet I could see that he needed the rest as he had to undergo an Op the day after. I was saddened and knowing that I could do nthg to alleviate his suffering only make the feeling worse. This person lying on the bed was one who had supported me, my bro and sis in whatever we do, the positive attitude that he gave or that he inspires was encouraging. Working almost 363 days a year, he was no whiner and despite setbacks he continue to see things in a positive and bright light. Not once did he scolded us for decisions we made, no targets no expectations set on us bt we know that deep inside he wanted all of us to excel cept that probably the consideration of our feelings and pressure we would had prevented him from voicing out. Glad that my dad much better now resting and doing his rehab in an nursing home and soon to be discharged. Alrite, this post has been one of a summary of my feelings and perhaps my grunts,haha... Anyway thks for all the reading. Take care.